I have a pair of roller blades in the back of my car. I think the last time I used them, George W was in his first term. Also, there’s some knitting needles in a bag in my closet. I can’t bear to part with them, or the beautiful half-completed “scarf” from senior year. And that reminds me. I’m writing a book. At least I was in seventh grade. We’ll see what happens.
In the whole scheme of things, I really don’t consider myself a fickle person. I mean, I definitely wasn’t the girl who had a new boyfriend, hairstyle, or group of friends every other week. I’d say I’m fairly stable, pretty solid considering the mass of humanity. But then again, I was thinking the other day that for a fairly predictable person, I make an awful lot of “I’m going tos” that, well…fizzle.
I’m going to run everyday. I’m going to scrub the floors on Thursday. I’m going to use my special moisturizer every night. I’m going to take B-12. I’m going to stop gossiping. I’m going to carry a planner, and keep in touch with my grandparents. I’m going to turn off the lights when I leave a room. I’m going to keep my toenails painted and my car cleaned. I’m going to save receipts, workout my abs and take more pictures. I’m going to study Greek. to recycle. to start a book club. to start a prayer plan and a cleaning plan and a learning plan.
Honestly, sometimes I get exhausted and a little discouraged with me and my lack of follow through.
If I could just stick with something.
It’s then that I marvel. As I look back on my life, there is ONE thing I’ve managed to do, that hasn’t fizzled or been given to Goodwill or left underneath the bed forgotten. There is ONE constant. It’s him. it’s God. How thankful I am that I am not holding on to him, but He is holding on to me. If things were reversed, who knows how long ago my faith would have been forgotten and maybe remembered again, or stopped and perhaps restarted. I found this theology from the Westminster Confession of Faith. It’s old wordy language, but what a wonderful thought!
Perseverance of the saints: “They whom God hath accepted . . . can neither totally nor finally fall away from the state of grace, but shall certainly persevere therein to the end, and be eternally saved.”
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Sammi says
love. amen.
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Faye Brown says
Love this. I am so thankful that it is He who is faithful and not left up to me.
Chetta says
I love this post. We just learned this wonderful song on Sunday that expresses this truth perfectly.
Gabby says
Amen. And I’m so thankful that He who began the good work in me will be faithful to bring it to completion.