Your Important Questions Are Already Answered

Next week, I will return to the allergist for the ninth year in a row, to have allergy testing re-done on my child with life-threatening food allergies.

There are few emotions quite like the ones you feel when the nurse arrives with her plastic-compartment of sterilized allergens, waiting to imprint the pin-prick vials on your child’s back. There is nothing quite like the lurch in the stomach knowing that the next few seconds could massively change your life. Could this be it? Could this be the moment where we walk out of here with a freedom we have never experienced? Is today the day it could all change?

It all coming down to this, to a few seconds awaiting, on one hand, the bumps and itches that mean more allergies: more checking and cross-checking, more anxiously hovering, more avoiding this and more “maybe-next-times,” more gut-deep worry, more lugging along all the medicines you can never be without.

Or instead, perhaps learning, finally, that it all could change, in a split second. That your life could feel so different.

We could leave here with new freedom, I think to myself. The places we could go, the adventures and freedom from anxiety we could experience – my heart skips a beat, even to imagine.

So much riding on it.

So much.

I was listening to the Christian radio station in the car the other day, alone, thoughts drifted to this Big Appointment, and I was overcome with emotion, the kind that’s a wordless, choked-prayer sob.

Please, Lord. Please, Lord. Let it be.

And it hit me:

Your important questions are already answered.

There is nothing important this test will tell us that we do not already know. No matter what we “find out” next Tuesday. NO MATTER WHAT WE DISCOVER EVER – The Important Questions are are already answered.

My child is safe in the arms of a Father who loves Him more than I do.

Not a hair can fall from his head apart from His Father’s will.

No one is “safer” than anyone else, and there is One in control of all things, and the safest place to be? It is in the center of God’s will.

We will all die, and this life is not the end. Heaven is real, and it is unfathomably beautiful, and it is ours in Christ Jesus.

The future is unequivocally bright. There is a hope and steadiness to our days that nothing can change.

And you, too, there. Your Questions waiting for answers? That application, that proposal, that move or that diagnosis – whatever comes of it, whatever the “answer” the real answers stay the same. The Rock won’t move, and His word is strong. We have this hope as an anchor. AN ANCHOR. not a buoy, or a boat – an anchor. It holds us deep down in place.

Oh, Lord, when it feels like all is unknown and at risk – steady us, Lord in the Answers that never change, that are more real and true than what we can see with our own eyes.

 

 

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